This morning I weighed at 9:30 am instead of 6 am. On the analog scale it looked like I might be down more than a lb. So I dared to go on the Wii. I knew that after the apparent 6 lb. drop overnight after the calibration, it was going to be sadly incremental, but I did not expect a 2 lb. GAIN!
A smaller gain would not have surprised me...though I fail to understand how one scale can say I lost and one can say I gained, all within minutes of each weigh, with the same amount of clothes on (none). But the smaller gain might have been the water retention because I had sauerkraut again last night. I did not have a full cup, and I had 1/2 an apple from the day before in stead of a whole one for lunch, so the calorie count for yesterday might have been, eh, 20 or 30 calories lower. And, because I was feeling a little spacey, I took some psyllium and bentonite clay. Since this is not protocol, let me explain why I did this.
This 'spacey' feeling isn't from hunger. In fact I wasn't very hungry yesterday at all. Bored with the food? Yes. Wishing I could enjoy happy hour on a Friday night? Yes. Hungry? Not so much. I even did yoga I felt so good, actually.
So the 'spacey' isn't about hunger usually, though some people want to attribute it to that. It doesn't go hand-in-hand with weakness or headache or other hunger issues. I wasn't inordinately cold or anything. I just felt a little restless and concentration was laborious. This, for me, is usually a sort of detoxification thing. We hold fat soluble toxins, estrogen...all sorts of stuff in our fat. When the fat is released, those things are then released into our bodies. I also had a third cup of coffee. In the event that stuff was moving through, I drank a class of bentonite and psyllium to move it through.
The think about both of those substances is that they absorb a ton of water. In fact, I likely drank more than a gallon of water yesterday. I, who drink almost that much daily anyway, had enough water that I just didn't want any more that evening. (Which is probably why I slept so good last night and didn't get up to pee!) Delicately, all of that is still part of the 'weigh in' currently.
Thus, I'm not worried. I am sticking to protocol selections and portions (or less, which I know is not good and I'm working on it) and I know for a fact I cannot gain weight on 500 calories per day. Something else is going on and I just need to keep going.
I do admit to being bored with my selections and missing red wine. However, feeling smaller is helping me to not be too upset about that. Besides, being bored is my own fault. If I liked fish or seafood, I'd have a bigger selection. Tonight I may go with asparagus and a beef patty, even knowing that beef isn't usually kind to me on the scale. Maybe for lunch I'll mix it up and have a salad using chicken, apple and lettuce. I have some Walden Farms dressings to use up.
Actually, a note here about that: In my previous posts I've mentioned Walden Farms and Atkins Bars. I've since learned a lot about Splenda, and I make an effort to avoid it now. Both of those items do contain it. I do not buy either now. I just have some left in my fridge and I'm too cheap to toss it.
I will buy gum that contains artificial sweeteners only because I've bought natural brands and they last about 2 minutes. If any one knows of a good natural brand, I'll switch. For now, I figure I don't use gum every day and even th
I struggled with my weight for over 20 years. I tried everything to lose weight. Yes, I did 'eat less, move more' repeatedly, convinced that doing the same thing over and over would someone yield different results. Desperate, having diligently done all the 'right' things and being told by several doctors that there was nothing wrong with me except that I wasn't trying hard enough, in 2009 I tried what seemed crazy: Dr. Simeons Hcg protocol. I lost 85 lb.