Another night with too little sleep! 

Weigh-in was at 5:30 am again. That is just too early. 

Yesterday was the same, and I was a zombie all day. I could not function. I was scatterbrained at work, and when I came home, I ate a late lunch (I think it was like 2:30...but it's a fog) and crashed. I slept for maybe an hour, but never did feel right. 

We went for a walk, but it was damn cold and very windy, so only walked a mile and a half.

Then we came home and had a late dinner. I know it was after 7...perhaps closer to 7:30. 

I had 1/2 apple in the morning, 1 cup of tuna and 2 pieces of string cheese for lunch. For dinner I had two 4" quinoa patties and maybe a cup of green beans, both with abundant amounts of olive oil. 

I have no idea how I'm going to get through the day. I have no idea how DH functions on this amount of sleep every day. 

It's raining today and will all day, so who knows what I will get for exercise.  

Not happy about this and don't care who knows.

See, if I just had a life where every day I could devote 2 or 3 hours to exercise, I'd be able to keep my weight stable and possibly even reduce! 

I didn't even eat dinner last night...exactly. I exercised lated (treadmill for 2 hours) and by the time it was over it was dinner time, but I wasn't hungry. When I was hungry it was too late to eat dinner, so I had a beef stick and a Baby Bel. I guess that could be considered dinner. All total, perhaps 1000 calories for the day.

I have 3 days in which I can exercise the minimum 2 hours per day. I'm working from home most of the week. There are no plans to eat, drink or be merry. It's time to play catch up and hopefully break some new ground before my birthday dinner in a few weeks. I'd really like to get down one more size so I can fit into this dress I bought last year.

It's cold outside. It's almost as if winter is trying to reclaim some ground here. 

Up at 5:30 a.m today for an appointment on my calendar that I'm pretty sure doesn't actually exist, but I have no way to check, so...I'm up. I was up anyway. I was up all damn night. 

We rode 14.5  miles yesterday. Our first ride of the year was 4 miles. My body was tapped out by the time we got home. There was no coasting on this ride. It was 2 hours of constant peddling. Before we left neither of us had eaten much. For me, that was less than a cup of my faux potato salad (my moms recipe with cauliflower instead of potatoes), perhaps an ounce of raw milk cheddar and a piece of no-sugar, no-flour banana bread. So, we took a couple of beef sticks to eat right before the ride, and some pistachios for after. 

When we got back, we were both just spent and needed to eat right away. I had <cup of brussels sprouts, 100g grass fed burger and another piece of banana bread. We stayed up late waiting for our daughter to get home and had a couple of drinks, which for me was wine. All total though, my calorie counting app said I still had hundreds of calories in my 'bank.'

My legs ached all night and I experienced hours of night sweats that kept me up alternating between the blazing power surges that made me sweat and the freezing that resulted from being soaked. The temperature outside plummeted last night and we didn't turn the heat back on inside, so it was freezing in here.

Somehow I need to function today. 

DH was up 3.5 lb. when he weighed in! I got on the upstairs analog and it looked like a 2 lb. gain up here. I have cramps this morning too. I didn't even bother going downstairs to weigh on the Wii. There is no conceivable way I could have actually gained weight after yesterday, so I don't care what registers on the scale. Perhaps tomorrow after sleep and a Epsom salt soak I hope to have tonight the scale will be nicer to me. I would also love to fit in a nice yoga today if I can find the energy. I need the stretch. If not, tomorrow. 

Meh. On with my day.

I expected that or worse. 

We had a fun night, with food, friends and drink. I tried to stick to what I know works for me. My party selections were my own mock potato salad, cheese (no crackers) my own sugar-free, gluten-free banana bread, cantaloupe. Before anyone got here I had a beef stick and some cheese. 

Somewhere into the third class of wine I decided the crumbs in the bottom of the corn chip bowl looked good. I'd estimate I ate the equivalent of maybe 3-4 full sized chips.

What I did do a little different is that 3 different times, I took the PGx, 2 each time. That is two more than I'd been taking the last couple of days. The suggested does tops out at 4 before EACH MEAL. And what I can say is that while I did take a taste of this or that (like with the chips) I was so full, I didn't want to continue eating anything in any great amount. So it is working in that regard. In fact, that cheese I had earlier with the beef stick...I poured some curds out onto a paper towel to let them come to room temperature before eating. By the time I got to them, the PGx must have expanded, because I ate a few curds and then just didn't want the rest. I gave them to my husband. 

That does make me wonder if any of that gain is all that fiber still making it's way through. I drank at least 100 oz. of water over the course of the night that would have been absorbed by the fiber. And I weighed at 9 am. Sometimes that makes a difference. So does not sleeping well, most of the time. I flipped and flopped a lot last night, though I didn't get up.

Time will tell. I'm thinking the PGx is a good thing. 

Today DH has said will be a 'nice day.' I'm not sure how nice, but it may include some outdoor activity. Even if this gain is 'real' I should be able to get it off before the week is out. 21 days before my birthday, which I also already know will need recovery time as far as weight goes. 

Once again, I am perplexed. I got no exercise yesterday with the rain and the busy. I worked, I went shopping, I made dinner. That was the extent of my day.

I was actually sort of surprised by this. 

So, for me today was a zero day, which is perfect. Another busy day with oodles of intentional and incidental movement, so we'll see what tomorrow brings.

However, I'm sort of miffed right now. Simeons' Hcg protocol saved my life. I'm not being hyperbolic. At 212 lb. on a 5'1" frame, I was no longer participating in my life and was ready to check out. I hurt all the time, I couldn't do anything I wanted to do, I was an embarrassment to myself and my family. No matter how hard I tried to reframe that, for years, it was just the truth. 

I tried EVERYTHING conventional wisdom says MUST ALWAYS work. It did not. I fell for every nonsensical BS weight loss gimmick when everything else failed. That's why there is $58 BILLION dollar weight loss industry, you know...because what 'they say' works, doesn't. If it did, we'd all do it. We go for the stupid 'easy pill' because we've tried working our ass off and starving ourselves and that didn't work, so why not? We are willing to try anything. We are stilling ducks. 

So, willing to try anything, I tried Hcg. AND IT WORKED! 

At the time, I couldn't afford the $3,000-$6,000 that doctors were charging to do this. I ordered prescription strength online and did it myself. Once I knew that not only did it work, but I was still healthy (actually much healthier) and it was easy to keep off, I approached a doctor to see if he would offer it for a more reasonable price than what others were charging. Some people NEED medical monitoring and some people NEED support. 

But some people don't. And some people may be able to scrape up the $200-$300 it costs to do it alone, but not 5 times that amount or more. Thus, it is important that Hcg remain available to those that need it.

I love this, but I'm not sure I trust it.